Brendan Tyler Maxwell

The guy of my dreams. The one im going to spend the rest of my life with. There are just so many things i love about this boy. I love his smile, the way he holds me, the adorable look on his face when he sees reeses cups, falling asleep in his arms, his scent, his eyes, the cute way he puts his hands behind his back and grins when he wants something, the way he whines when im unsure about something he wants, how gentle he is with me, how sweet he is to me, how much we have in common, how i can trust him, how i never doubt a single word he says to me, how much he loves me, and theres SO much more, but theres nothing i love more than how much i love him. I love him more then anything in the entire world, i would die for him in an instant. That boy is my whole life. Talking to him, being with him <-- my favorite things in the entire world. Out of all the bad that has happened in my life, he outshines it all. He outweighs every single bad thing that has ever happened to me. That boy is my angel, my guiding light. I dont know what i would do without him, my soulmate.<3

The man who thinks he owns me

You are a liar. You are self-centered. You have a faulty belief system. You are cruel. You dont listen to anyone but yourself. You are judgemental. You are narrow-minded. You are uncaring. You are full of shit. You think you are my "father" but you are NOT. You are just my mothers boyfriend, the one she has been cheating on for well over three years. You are the most hateful human being i have EVER had the displeasure of meeting. I hate you. I hate you and i wish you would just die already. I dont want you in my life, and believe the moment i can leave your house of misery, i will NEVER return to it. You do everything you can to control every aspect of me. I cant be friends with who i want, i cant dress how i want, i cant wear as many necklaces or rings as i want, i cant wear what shoes i want, i cant date who i want, i cant eat what i want. You go through my trash, my school things, my phone and text logs, my internet usage, try to monitor the books i read and music i listen to. Fuck that. Fuck you. I AM MY OWN PERSON. I do not belong to you, i am not yours to control. So, could you like, get the fuck out of my life.? Im tired of being miserable and alone all the time because thats how you like me. Im tired of having to bow down to you. You are NOT my dad. You are just some controlling bastard who likes to make my fucking life hell. LEAVE ME ALONE. :C

What you have made me.

Ive done everything i can to get help. Ive told the teachers, ive called CPS, ive tried to convince you to let me go, but you thwart every plan i come up with. You defeat me everytime, and im stuck with you. People wonder how i cam to be the way i am, bipolar, a little schizophrenic. Well its YOUR fault. I am what you have made me. You have made me crazy, you have made me unhappy, you have made me die inside, but you have also made me strong. Stronger then you will ever be. I once was heartless and a cheater just like my mother, until one day i realized that i dont want to be anything like her. I dont want to have the reputation of a slut, i dont want to be unhappy, bouncing from boy to boy to boy. And thats when i found my soulmate, a boy who is perfect for me in every single way, who i love with all my heart, who i wouldnt give up for anything in the world. Brendan loves me, despite what you have made me. You have made me paranoid, you have made me bipolar, you have made me have anger management issues, you have made me a hard person to love. But he deals with it all, because we love eachother that much. Im going to spend the rest of my life with him. Yeah, you hate that. Yeah, your doing everything you can to break us apart. But you will not succeeed. You have taken WAY too much from me over the years, you are not taking him too. No. I am what you have made me, but my life with him will be what i make it. Completely apart from YOU.