What is heartbreak, if you dont even have a heart.?

Bahahah, Brendan was the worst thing to ever happen to me, and he is also the best thing that ever happened to me c: He brought alot into my life, that wouldnt be there otherwise, and for that i am thankful. I suppose I'm glad to know what love is, and what its like to love someone unconditionally, but i am SO done with him and Rachel xD It aint even worth it anymore. Id rather be hardhearted and unloving, then in pain and chasing after people who arent coming back, or just flat out will never be mine :) So over it.